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Sweet Surrender

December 28th, 2007 | by gene |

I’ve had a relatively busy day for me, but this has been on my mind for most of it. I’ve mentioned this song here before. But, today, as I reflect on what happened yesterday, what is happening now in Pakistan, I just have to believe, that the world, ALL of it, has this SO VERY WRONG. It is not vengeance we need seek. It is surrender. To what? Well, I think to the love that bore us. The love from which we were all created, the love that is our sentient spirit, our creator, our mother/father, maker of heaven and earth. And everything else as well.

As this song has been running through my mind all day, and I’ve been in places and situations where I could not let it just flow, it took me until now to realize why jenna has been singing it to me. So if you would, listen to this: Sweet Surrender

It doesn’t mean much
it doesn’t mean anything at all
the life I’ve left behind me
is a cold room
I’ve crossed the last line
from where I can’t return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my homeAnd sweet surrender
is all that I have to giveYou take me in
no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness
that surrounds me
(who are you?)
are you an angel?
am I already that gone?
I only hope
that I won’t disappoint you
when I’m down here
on my knees
(who are you?)
And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give(who are you?)
sweet surrender
is all that I have to giveAnd I don’t understand
by the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fallI miss the little things
I miss everything *about you*

It doesn’t mean much
it doesn’t mean anything at all
the life I left behind me
is a cold room

(who are you?)
And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

(who are you?)
And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

You know I think, maybe, the most important thing I’ve ever read, thought or will think is that one little line in the middle of this beautiful song. “I only hope that I won’t disappoint you, when I’m down here on my knees”I guess I believe too, that it isn’t possible to “disappoint” our creator in whatever we do, for with this life we were given free will as well. And no parameters. No, the commandments are not parameter, no, the bible is not a parameter, no, the Quran is not a parameter. Free will is either free or it is nothing. I think, I really do, the best we can hope for, even if it is not possible, is that we do not disappoint the love that made us. Perhaps we can’t, not really, not at home, but here? I sometimes feel very much disappointed in us as a species. This is one of those times. I am having a hard time shaking this “funk” that has settled on me. And she was not even “mine” in that sense. I understand what those who believed she could bring Pakistan into the 21st century are feeling, but it is not in me to support what some of those are doing to express their grief and disappointment. What a sad way to end 2007, what a sad way to begin 2008. The answer is in this song. Sweet Surrender, surrender to love, were we all to do that, 2008 could be a year of miracles indeed. Rather than a year of accusations and brow beating and attack ads. Could we not now, please? All of us, come together, in sweet surrender to love? I want that for New Year’s. much love, :^) gene